After you said Im awesome. 

Trip day

Today, Im gonna fly. But its a short flight. Apparently, a very short journey, but mom's making it exquisitely interesting for us that she planned it to be more or less 5 nights. Im counting on that !

I packed my stuff, found out my beads slipper is quite worn out due to the expansion whenever I wear it. - The beads are falling out. :/ And ABC - Allah Bagi Cuti. How am I gonna swim? :| Each of us has our own luggage of course, making mine the heaviest in average of 5 people. I worry too much that I have to bring things almost extra or just sufficient, can't bare if it isn't although Im gonna shop till I drop there. Quite a sadist. And we're planning to take public transport to the airport. Even if we do have to pay a slight amount for our butts to sit. Dad seems not to care about it. Heeeeeheeeee.


I think Im gonna nudge him today : "Hi, sombong" Been a long time since we chatted. Maybe its the forced pleasure I get from not entertaining him these days ever since I decided to refuse everything that could hurt myself again in the future, and I can tell the world "I bet he can". Even if he doesnt do it directly, loving him alone would hurt me terribly. But the stupid incomprehensible fact here is that even when I dont chat or do anything that concerns him, I can say to myself that "Im still madly in love with him"


Darn it.